NELLYS-SPOT
HOW EYE want to be remembered...
somthing has robbed me of my best years...
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they are all gone... waiting in the cemetery
for the next half of my story
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eye want to make sure others are more
care-ing..then eye was with my time...
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resolutions...Bucket-List ... parts played
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wife...mother... friend... how my actions
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gided people to a better world...
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and to a lifetime of regret...
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fear looks back...
(the world that was)
anxiety looks around..
(the world thats passing)
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faith looks up...
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faith in his faithfulness.
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not mine...
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.his willingness and excitement...
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..to love me.... despite me...
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nite thot botes:
yor story (life of alcohol use) is your glory..whay do you want your pages to say befor your creator.. what do your pages glow with? alcoholic-lifestyle-based paint?? anger that male female child do not get more of what they deserve.. not knowing.. turn your back on the noise these three inside you make..logical-brain emotional-brain erotic-brain(reptile-people) is not good enuff for the things god wants you a part of...and traffiking in you.. devotions for and by your creator god..higher self? meens thsese three have insight.. but a proper place...else they are in the way and a distraction..getn singn to god each like only they can..instruments for him.. for him are all things.. this redemption smallest-seed-gospell is the source joy meening light to all else.. what is beautiful without light? what is whiter than snow...the person redemeed by the blood of jesu the lamb of god..casting all your sins behind his back.. not transubtiation..which is whichcraft symbolism for human sacrifices for sins..
other nite thots paper:
stone-bucket-worth-church-of-sex ..meening? amish-ize..
-O- wake up..u gave thebest 26 years to wathin re-runs re-makes re-fictioned events.. not just years.. your best-years..cuz your creator didnt deserve your best.. if you will not unde-stand (change) somthing it will eat your next 26-years also… now that you see how these things you do have stollen your best-years and tossed it in a graveyard you can guess what they want to do with the other half of your years..… if the first part of your life-painted looks like one-half of an automobile.. than everyone can prettywell guess what the next half of the picture (your next 26 years) is going to look like.. god had somthin for you.. somthin he wanted done… you can tell by all the tools time opportunity ...it was somthin wonderful...like a child who finds pieces to a game scattered everywhere… but has no idea it all belongs to a game...so he uses it on his own ideas.. thats how his-life...became..your life.. the idea that you can do what yo want...and miss out on nothing..except what it was placed there for…
its like a parent getting your children gifts for xmas and then gettin angry cuz all they want to do is play with the boxes and wrapping paper.. with no clue that the gift inside(you) can do so much more.. a life wasted… duz the parent love his childen any less? .. no … but oh the loss of blessings.. a life you did not want… and now you can take vengence...you see how your time was wasted chasing bait.. self-seeking-bait.. now you can help others who are in danger of doing exactly what you did…
you must answer to god for your manner of dress.. many men have lost their lives family senses children..cuz they happned to be for one momnet in a place where they coood see how you dress with no thot for them and what dressing like that wood do to them.. yes they probly forgot you for all the other things that happen in a day.. but your impact was a seed planted.. the blood of broken familys is on your hands.. cuz the man started going after other women cuz of what you planted.. and think of all the kids who went to school without a breakfast cuz you spent it all on shampoo for your hair...whats 40$ worth of hair-products for souls of children? now both will burn...cuz they ment nothin to you…
your book of days will be full and you will give it to god.. full of what you thot(yor way not gods-ways) he was worth..your creator… (o lord thou has wrot all our works in us)
-O- bucket list resolution list..
-O- sm1 to hold yo accountable to your goals..weekly-contact with this person is a must..
-O- theatre and popular-music are just more hymns for people unknowingly attending the church-of-sexual.. but now that you are aware you see how they waste steal energy time and half your life drain away you can save what did not get flushed...yet..by warning others.. so-brite-song glow-in or.. you can repeat..next 26 years exact copy of last 26 years..which was just exact copys of re-runs you already saw.. demoralized(KGB) is a dwelling action(HASL)..not a one-timer..
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